Fellow yogis and friends,
It always seems like there is so much to be done, so many problems requiring our attention and energy. Of course we have to be attentive towards our loved ones, take care our personal needs and be responsible professionals and community members. But maybe the burden we feel is not as heavy as we imagine it to be.
With everything I am struggling with emotionally, I sometimes have a difficult time taking care of myself, managing personal responsibilities, dealing with internal and external problems. When I am having a ruff day I often think to myself, “this isn’t so bad now, but what am I going to do in 4 or 5 years when I have to manage a career and a family.”
But by thinking this way I put an unnecessary burden on myself. The reality is, right now, I don’t have children. Right now, I am responsible only for myself. 4 or 5 years in the future is a time that exists only in my mind, a time that will bring unexpected struggles and joys. So why worry too much about it?
In one story about Achaan Chah, the monk points to a large boulder and asks his student, “is that rock heavy?” “Of course!” the student replies. Achaan Chah smiles and says, “Only if you pick it up.”
Great seeing some of you last night. Always a pleasure to share in the silence.